I have decided to start a new series that will follow my pregnancy. It will include things I am learning, feeling, and my progress.
As you already know from my B’s the word post, I am expecting a baby in April. Brandon and I were not trying to conceive quiet yet, but it only happened a few months earlier than we were expecting. Brandon and I are very happy and to be honest there are still days when it does not seem real.
I want to start off with how I took the news of being pregnant. The day that I took the test I was shocked and didn’t totally believe it, but at the same time I was really happy. As the weeks progressed, I was still happy, but nervous that it wasn’t real. I took several pregnancy tests just to be sure and for some reason I had it in my mind that it wasn’t going to happen. That for some reason the tests were wrong or that I was going to miscarry. I started feeling very nauseous on a daily basis, and I struggled with being joyful about being pregnant at all. I will admit I complained to Brandon and others quite often that I was tired of feeling sick, and I just wanted to be myself again. Finally about 3-4 weeks ago, Brandon took me aside and said he understood that I was sick, but that I really needed to find the joy in the fact that I was pregnant. At first, I got very upset with him and told him that he didn’t understand what I was going through, but after his words sunk in and with some words from the Holy Spirit I realized that he was right. This pregnancy was a gift that many women are denied, and I was complaining about not feeling myself.
God uses so many different things in our lives to teach us new things and to have us turn toward him in obedience. I have been praying about this issue and have had such a better attitude about this amazing and scary journey known as pregnancy. I still have days when I struggle, but I keep reminding myself that everyday that this life is growing inside me is a gift from God and that I get the privilege to carry and give birth to him or her.