I always wanted to grow up and get married, it was always one of my desires in life. And I always thought that when I said those vows, I would instantly change and become this adult women that knew how to be a wife. Boy, was I wrong! Having been married for 7 months now, I realized that that is not the case. Sure I have changed to some extent, but I am still Sara. The Sara that was a bossy sister, made goofy movies with her two best friends, and graduated college and worked for a nonprofit. Sure all of the things in my life have changed me, but they have also shaped the wife that I am to Brandon now.
Growing up is a funny thing. When you are young you think that when I reach such and such age I will be complete, but that is not how it works. Yes, we can become more wise and have new perspectives, but we are still learning, and I feel like we will always be learning until we take our final breath. If we didn’t continue to learn and change why would we continue living. We would come to a point where we were perfect and God would just take us home. We would have nothing further to do here. And maybe to some extent this is true, but also God did not put us here simply for ourselves. We are here to glorify Him and tell others that God is king and he desires us to turn from our selfish lives and follow him.
My relationship with Christ has changed a lot also. Marriage really is an amazing thing that God can use to reveal more of his character to us. The oneness that I get to share with Brandon is beautiful, unique, and mysterious. It shows me how God wants that same kind of oneness with him.
“I do not ask for these only, but also for those who will believe in me through their word, that they may all be one, just as you, Father, are in me, and I in you, that they also may be in us, so that the world may believe that you have sent me. The glory that you have given me I have given to them, that they may be one even as we are one, I in them and you in me, that they may become perfectly one, so that the world may know that you sent me and loved them even as you loved me. John 17:20-23
To acquire true oneness, marriage requires a lot of trust, humbleness, and forgiveness. If marriage has taught me one thing, it would be “It is not all about me“. Thankfully Brandon and I both have the Holy Spirit who helps us to be convicted and to know when we need to seek forgiveness from each other, and also from the Lord.
I thank the Lord that he does not leave us where we are, and if we will submit to Him he will help us to grow in obedience and likeness of Christ.
May you be blessed this Christmas and remember the true meaning of why we celebrate because Jesus Christ our Lord was born and became our sacrifice and tabernacle so that we can have access to God the Father.